Tuesday, July 15, 2014

What is the size of your world?

Originally published in July 2014: republished by mistake. Oops!

Humility is something I strive for every day and generally, I don’t find much success. There have been some problems on my mind lately. By all accounts they are minor. But nonetheless, they have still been occupying far too many of my thoughts. As usual, however, God’s timing is perfect and He always finds a way to put me in my place.

After attending visiting hours at the celebration service for the mother of Mallory’s teammate who passed away last week, (http://bit.ly/1oEBqhd) we decide to stop for lunch at “The Triangle” near the IUPUI campus. As we are eating, I notice, through the restaurant window, a young fellow standing with a homeless sign. I cannot recall ever seeing a homeless person so close to campus before and it strikes me as a bit odd. I automatically assume he is pulling some type of scam. I look away. God starts pulling at my heart so I hurriedly finish my buttered noodles and rush over to talk to him. 
As I approach him, he is a bit older than I originally guessed. He looks to be in his mid to late-twenties. I ask him about his story. He tells me he lost his construction job of flipping houses when his company shut down. He doesn’t say how long ago that was and I don’t want to pry too much so that detail is left unsaid. I then ask him if I can buy him lunch at Taco Bell and he agrees. Still not convinced this guy is on the level, we start walking into the restaurant. He continues to provide details of what he did when he was working and what happened. We walk up to the counter.

I tell him to order what he wants. He hesitates for a second and asks if he can get something for his wife because she is hungry too. I didn't see her and I don’t know where she is, but I tell him that is fine. He orders four tacos. I give him an open-ended invitation and he orders four tacos. I up it to a 12-pack and a large drink. As we are waiting, I ask him if he knows who Jesus is. He said he did and that he prays a lot. I pat him on the shoulder and tell him I will pray for him too. I start to walk away. He stops me and asks if I know of anyone who is hiring for the types of skills he had. I told him I do not, but that I will take down his name and phone number in case I hear of something. That last part convinces me he is on the level and that God is sending me a message. A message to get over myself and my petty problems.

“ Give, and it will be given to you. Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you.” Luke 6:38 (ESV)

This passage didn't come to my mind until after I was back to work. Will my reward be monetary? Will it be something that will wait until I get to Heaven? I don’t know, but that really isn't what I want my motivation to be.  I want to love others because He first loved us. The lives of most Americans are so big or so small, depending on how you look at it. Like everyone else, my life becomes so focused around what I have going on in my puny, little world that God has to stop me in my tracks, open my eyes and put me in my place. I hope He does the same for you.


Thursday, July 3, 2014

Finding Focus

For many years, I tried to find my true purpose in life. My focus. My focus from God. My focus for God. 

 “And Jesus came and said to them,All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.  Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.’” (Matthew 28: 18-20 ESV)

I know this.  But, what does it look like for me?

When we got married, we had children. I cleaned house, I made dinner, we attended ballgames, we went to their band concerts, and we coached their teams. We volunteered in almost every activity the girls were in. When Jessica started kindergarten, I quit my job because they would not allow me to attend Kindergarten Orientation Day. I had focus. My focus was my family. With a husband and four girls, there was a lot to focus on. 

Fast forward about ten years I saw the writing on the wall and it wasn’t from crayon scribbles.  The girls were growing up. I would have to find another purpose to fill my time. We were still pretty busy with activities and such, but I went back to college to finish my degree. In May 2014, I did. I am now a college graduate. I did it for myself, but I also did it for God. I mean, kind of. He did bless me with my intellect and I felt as though I would be failing Him if I did not finish my college degree. Mission accomplished.

As the girls start to leave home, my thoughts turn back to finding my “new calling”. But, I keep finding myself frozen by all of the possibilities.  There is so much brokenness, hurt and sin in the world.  How do I best serve God?

With my background as a child of the foster care system, I have often thought of getting involved there. I would like to help kids see that they can rise above their situation. They don’t have to remain victims of circumstance. They can stand strong and move past it all. Would I be allowed to share the message of God’s love and comfort?  After all, I never would have survived my own ordeal without my hope in God and His Son, Jesus.

Then, I hear about the awful plight of women, children and even men who are caught in the world of human trafficking. What can I, just one mom living in Indiana, do to fix this?  Ideas swirl around in my head, but again, I become overwhelmed and my thoughts turn to something more immediate and those ideas are lost. ( http://www.humantrafficking.org/ )

What about the homeless?  How can we better serve the under privileged in society.  Today’s world is never without plenty of souls who are poor, sick and homeless. They need our help and God’s message too. What big gesture can I make to help them? (http://www.wmm.org/ )

My latest preoccupation is abortion. I feel so many people would think differently about the issue if they took time to really examine the facts. Life is so precious and I think that when women find themselves in a situation that seems hopeless, it can be easy to forget that a life is being snuffed out in a matter of minutes. The viewing of the movie http://www.180movie.com/ helped me see that some people can and will change their minds if given a new perspective. Is this where God needs me?

All of these causes are ways of glorifying God. I want to choose the one where I will be most effective. I want to make a choice that brings His message to those who truly need it. I am a doer. I need results. After countless hours of sweat and tears, I want to see a finished product. Then, it occurred to me that all I need to do is….something. Just start. When I see a need, fill it. When someone is hurting, comfort them.  God will lead me to where He wants me to go.

BOTTOM LINE:  I just need to start planting and let God worry about the harvest.








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